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| Friday, October 24th, 2008 | | 10:56 pm |
the new me!!
I wonder in finding myself was I missing out on love? The truth is I need to find myself in order to find love. I also wonder in leaving my love life in pause, can I ever take it off pause? Love is a very difficult word these days, somehow I always end up finding myself alone, does that mean I’m supposed to be alone? For example, since my love life has become at a stand still is it possible I unintentionally screwed up a relationship in the past. Could it be that I had passed up true love and happiness. Maybe it all just has to do with timing and being yourself and being comfortable with who you are. Some days I think if I wasn’t so immature and rushing into all that stuff with Andrew would it have worked out? Would I have slept with Steve or Peter? Would I have even met Peter? Were me and Andrew really meant to be and was it too late??...Could it be that our time had passed and it was too late? I wonder when you don’t have love do u only think about sex, and when you have sex do you worry about love? I cut up the pictures of me and peter tonight I feel a lot better about everything I mean what do I need a guy for to fuck me haha yeah that’s great so I can get hurt again…I think this time being on my own is a good thing…a thing I think my grandmother would have wanted me to finally grow up and realize what’s important in life…my family and my friends and of course there are boys in life but they come later… Maybe there's some new reason as to why i cut up the pictures tonight...maybe its cuz jenn is gone and i had silence to think or maybe its just the sense of being alone just forced me to think about whats important again... Over the years i have been obsessed with boys but maybe that was just a outlet for me now i realize that i do love my parents and my friends more then anything and i want to help my family considering our economy is in the toilet...i love you grandma and ill always miss you...<3 Current Mood:  accomplished | | Sunday, April 13th, 2008 | | 9:29 pm |
its april 13th 2008 at 9:29 pm
Heyy its been a while...that whole Cj thing didn't work out at all but it was a little fun while it lasted...lol...i still love Andrew and I'm seriously convinced that, that is never going to change and that all I can do now is wait for him to realize that we are meant to be and in the mean time I will finish college and figure out what I wanna be which will most likely be a detective!! Other than that I hope that it doesn't take that long!! anyway just wanted to update!!! and as of about a month ago Jenn got rid of Tim finally thank god for that...<3 | | Friday, December 7th, 2007 | | 11:55 pm |
i dont know wat to call this
ive met this new guy cj and hes coming up to visit me this sunday night to stay over and i dont know exactly wat is going to happen!! i really like him actually hes really nice and sweet and he actually calls me unlike andrew i donno wat to do because this weekend just like last weekend and the weekend b4 andrew has told me he was coming to my school to visit me but never showed up and he doesnt answer the phone so i donno wat i wanna do about this at all this is crazy and the thing is i really do love andrew with all my heart hes was my first true love and i dont think ill ever feel the same way about someone else!! i dont understand why he cant pick up the phone and tell me whether hes coming or not idc i just hate when he tells me hes calling and then doesnt answer the phone or anything!! i dont get it...i do believe that i really do love andrew and i dont know wat im going to say the next time i speak to him...honestly i want to tell him that im extremely pissed off at him for dissappointing me three times but i also now that i dont want to fight with him i just want him to kiss me and hold me tight in his arms...cuz i love him so much!! well i g2g ill update another time soon!! <3 | | Sunday, November 25th, 2007 | | 12:04 am |
Thanksgiving Break!!
so i came home for thanksgiving break and well i saw andrew and well exactly what I expected to happen did in fact happen!! I saw andrew and fell right back in love with him all over again like we were at that basketball game all over again!! except he didnt have braces this time...lol...i used to think that maybe I really wasnt in love with andrew and that I just liked being annoying to him and bothering him and making him like hate me but i realized over the summer that I do love him with all my with all my heart and like Jennifer Aniston said, " i can live without you, i just really dont want to," in Rumor has it. Well lets just say I realized this summer that of course yes I can survive without andrew perfectly fine and actually be pretty happy without him...but here's the thing I would rather him be my boyfriend and possibly my husband!! who knows but I wanna try for as long as I feel this way about him!! Which I think very well may be the rest of my life and I certainly hope so cuz the way andrew makes me laugh omg I could laugh laugh with him forever!! lol....iight well thats it for now any questions!! im me at nellygirl226@aol.com...<3 | | Saturday, November 17th, 2007 | | 2:37 am |
my new lover
omg i really think i am falling for marin and i donno if thats a bad thing or wats exactly going on its crazy the way that im feeling but i havent seen andrew in i think like a month or something and i donno wat im doing cuz everytime i see him i fall straight back in love with him...so i donno wat im going to do!! <3 | | Tuesday, May 8th, 2007 | | 10:07 pm |
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| | Monday, March 20th, 2006 | | 8:09 am |
i love andrew
yoyoyo...the best bf in the whole world is andrew spellman thats all i have to say bye bye xoxoxo i love u andrew!! Current Mood:  happy | | Tuesday, December 20th, 2005 | | 8:06 am |
My BaBy BoY NiCk!!
Omg my new baby nick is awesome, he’s the best thing that ever happened to me I love him with all my heart and I don’t know what else to say really considering that people are saying that I’m going out with him out of pity which is bull shit cuz if I did feel sorry for him which I don’t then I wouldn’t even bother going out with him…but since I am dating him and have been for well its two weeks tomorrow then doesn’t that prove that im not dating him out of pity and that I really do love him cuz I do he’s the sweetest guy ive ever met and he treats me like a princess…and im not going to ruin that just cuz a few losers in my school seem to think that im only dating him out of pity they have a new thing coming…!!! Anyway I love him so0o0oo0o0o0o much and im done right now but if u have any doubts about my relationships keep them to yourselves unless you feel like getting bruised k…lol…xoxoxoxo love you nick!! | | Sunday, November 13th, 2005 | | 6:40 pm |
the perfect day
omg today was the perfect day i spent it with the one person that has cared about me my whole life i cant believe ive been with him for basically 4 years!! i love him so0o0o much!! xoxo Current Mood:  hyper | | Wednesday, October 26th, 2005 | | 10:21 am |
today
omg im in the library during lunch and im sitting here wit tommy, christine, and max and were just talking about absolutly nothing and its so0o0o much fun and ong i found matts dad on google yesteray and i thought it was really funny...lol...ttyl bye xoxox lov ya brit and kammy Current Mood: cheerful | | Monday, October 17th, 2005 | | 8:21 pm |
Everything from Myspace
this is just everything that i have on my blob on myspace...lol.. Monday, October 17, 2005 Zack and Bobo Current mood: happy omg zack and bobo have been awesome with helping me to get over kaufmann omg i love you guys your the best i mean bobo with his meanful talks that last about 5 seconds about how kaufmann's an asshole and that i need to just forget about him and then theres zacks talks about if i dont shut up about kaufmann hes gonna tell me about how hott amanda is or something about another girl he knows just to piss me off so ill stop talking about him they both have been great and omg i love you guys...you guys have been the best omg its awesome and omg i miss rich so0o0o0o much and its crazy we barely get to talk and omg i spoke to jared for like the first time in a really long time i might see him this weekend but who knows anyway...well i actually updated this thing lol...anyway bye everyone love u bobo,zack and rich and i definitly dont love kaufmann anymore...yay...life is perfect....lol...brittany i love u....my sexy baby...lol...bye everyone xoxoxoxoxoox 8:04 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Tuesday, August 23, 2005 kaufmann Current mood: hyper so0o0o like omg sunday night spended with kaufmann was alot of fun but dont worry im not getting into him again christine i know better then to do that again...but were just best friends now and it was alot of fun seeing him again since i hadnt seen him in like almost 2 months anyway...we had fun and dont worry nothing bad happened ok...w/e anyway...g2g talk to some people that i havent in like 4 eva lata everyone...bye matthew lov ya(you know wat i mean) 11:54 AM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Monday, August 08, 2005 omg Current mood: happy so0o0o0o just to fill everybody in asshole is back from vermont and were kinda ok now like we talk once a month and i still love him but he hurt me like so0o0o much i sometimes dont know wat to say to him except "i love u" but he doesnt say it back anymore and i dont really say it really at all to him anymore even though i still mean it...i really hope that one day when he matures that he'll realize we belong together but everyday we grow farther apart and i want him to be in my life always...but anyway...so0o0o im really bored and matt is jealous that me and mike are flirting and yes i know that he kinda has a gf but hes hott and theres no harm in flirting...anyway...if u want to know more leave me a message or a comment or call me lol...ttyl xoxo 7:12 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Friday, July 22, 2005 MATTHEW IS OUT OF MY LIFE Current mood: hyper YES FINALLY HES OUT EVERYONE LETS THROW A PARTY NOW I HAVENT SMILED LIKE THIS IN MONTHS AND IM SoOoOoOoOoOoOo HAPPY WOW...I LOVED HIM AND THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER MOVE ON BUT F*UCK THAT I DID AND IM TOTALLY OVER HIM WE DONT EVEN TALK ANYMORE SO MEGAN DONT GET WORRIED HES ALL URS...IM DONE WIT HIM ANYWAYS BACK TO IMPORTANT STUFF OK YEAH SO THIS NEW GUY THAT IM SORTA DATING WELL I WONT TELL YOU HIS NAME TIL AFTER WE GO ON OUR FIRST DATE OK...BUT IF UR LIKE DIEING TO KNOW MESSAGE ME AND ILL TELL YOU ANYWAY...WOW TODAY AT WORK WAS SoOoOoOoOo MUCH FUN OMG I LOVE ZACHADOODLE HES AMAZING AND HES ONLY LIKE 2 YEARS OLD...WOW I WANNA JUST TAKE HIM HOME WIT ME...SoOoOoOo ANYWAY WOW TODAY WIT CHRISTINE WAS FUN "CONGRADULATIONS" ...wow that was loud christine lol dont think they heard you by the second time...lol...anyway ill write more later ttyl if u want to ask me anything about this mistery guy just message me...lov ya cutie u know who u r!! bye baby ok bye everyone xoxoxo 8:12 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Tuesday, June 14, 2005 HYPER AND SAD!! Current mood: hyper OMG...as some of you already know matt broke up wit me the day after my sisters batmitzvah and i was very suicidal about it but wat really helped was talking to matt hes been there for me the whole time even though he like literally broke my heart hes been there and we talk everyday even during finals and its really helping me...hes being soOoOo great about everything...were BEST FRIENDS RIGHT NOW AND TELL EACHOTHER EVERYTHING...YEA MEGAN HE TELLS ME ABOUT HOW HE FEELS ABOUT YOU...well some arent good but thats ok...i wont tell matthew ur my boy...i got ur back i would never tell any of UR FRIENDS anything you know that cutie...anyway...back to reality where the rest of the world live except for megan sorry hunnie but not all of us waste our college money on seeing a guy when ur a F*CKING TEENAGER....anyway...ur my favorite boy matt ur awesome...i love u boy...anyway im soo glad that you've been there for me i know ive been a lil crazy about this whole thing thats happening to you but its iight just let nature take its course you know....anyway...i g2g just had to update everyong on whos this months STUPID F*CKIN B*TCH....anyway....love ya boy...ttyl everyone...missin you steph cant wait to hang again we gotta get together...g2g bye everybody... 11:02 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Sunday, May 22, 2005 AwEsOmE dAy!! Current mood: bouncy WOW TODAY WAS REALLY AWESOME...OMG MY MOM WOKE ME UP AT 9:30 TO GO TO THE DINER WHICH WASNT SOOO GREAT BUT I GOT TO GET FOOD SO THAT WAS GOOD...WOW TODAY WAS JUST ALOT OF FUN I DID ALL MY BIO FOR LIKE 2 WEEKS SO THATS OUT OF THE WAY...OMG MY SISTERS BAT MITZVAH IS A WEEK FROM TOMORROW...OMG GONNA BE SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH FUN!! I CANT WAIT!! LOL ILL WRITE MORE NEXT TIME G2G CHECK MAIL AND COMMENT PEOPLE BACK!! 8:25 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Saturday, May 21, 2005 Last Night Current mood: hyper omg last night was awesome i saw my baby matthew and we had soooo much fun and he tried to teach me drums again...but omg the night before wit christine...omg...playing wit (light bulb's) head...lol...well i wasnt i kinda was gonna dump my bf for him but hey...he doesnt want me...so screw him...not literally...anyway...i dont think i like him like that anymore...i saw him in school and omg wow...wat was i thinking i must have been on drugs...dont ever let me take those again christine...its the hott guy pills from the one at the little league game...lol...wow he really was hott...omg RI,MM,AM, and the rest are really hott omg...lol...i love them all...i love you too matthew ur my baby i love you sooooo much...omg im soooo tired too...wow...ima go and wow....sooo much fun thursday night wit my BFF FOR LIFE...guess who everyone *Christine* lol...omg and FRIDAY NIGHT...MY ONE WORD TO DESCRIBE MY MAN....PERFECT...HES ALWAYS THERE FOR ME NO MATTER WHAT I LOVE HIM SOOOO MUCH...HES MY SEXY, HOTT BABY LOL...I LOVE YOU MATTHEW NOW AND FOREVER!! WERE PERFECT!! WELL IMA GO AND GET SOME HOMEWORK DONE LOL!! I LOVE U MATTHEW AND CHRISTINE!! BYE EVERYONE!! 12:29 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Thursday, May 05, 2005 ToDaY Current mood: crushed wow...today has been crazy ive been missing my ex matt and i miss my new bf chris that lives in long island and i cant even talk to matt tonight becuase tomorrow is the AP EURO EXAM!! GOOD LUCK MATTHEW,HEATHER,AND MICHELLE AND WHOEVER ELSE THATS TAKING IT TOMORROW!! Anyway...im kinda bored and i donno wat to do cuz im not in the mood to do homework i havent been all week!! well ill write more later love you all!! bye 5:48 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove | | Sunday, October 9th, 2005 | | 9:35 pm |
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HATE THE WORLD MATT THERES SOMETHING FUCKIN WRONG WIT YOU THAT U THINK I DONT FUCKIN CARE MORE THEN MEGAN WELL FUCK YOU AND I HOPE U DIE!! Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this) Monday, May 23rd, 2005 10:12 am Im In ScHoOl!! WOW...OMG THIS WEEKEND WAS HILARIOUS MY MOM THINKS THAT I SMOKE BUT SHE THINKS THAT MATTHEW IS THIS INNOCENT THING...WOW IM SOOOOO TIRED...ANYWAY...I WENT TO GO SEE CRASH WITH MY PARENTS ON SATURDAY NIGHT TO THE 10PM SHOW...WATS NEW WIT EVERYBODY!! ANYWAY...ILL WRITE MORE NEXT TIME...I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH MATTHEW!! BYE EVERYBODY Current Mood: flirty (Comment on this) Friday, May 13th, 2005 2:49 pm My PeRfEcT dAy!! omg my day has been sooo great today and its friday the thirteeth,omg today is awesome I cant believe how great today was it was such a fun day like omg…anyway…wow im being soo random right now wow ill update more later i promise im just in school now and its boring!! i love matthew!! Current Mood: hyper (Comment on this) Saturday, April 2nd, 2005 7:46 pm The OTTO Awards LAST NIGHT!! omg i brought matthew wit me and he met lauchlan...christine...mark...heather and some other people, omg Mr. Resendez and Mr. V OMG WOW THEY WERE SOOO FUNNY!! The whole night was hilarous and i loved every minite of the awards it was sooo funny everything was hilarous...anyway, well tonight im grounded and kinda really bored, matt is at a family bat mitzvah, but anyway, i g2g im gonna go watch the movie TAXI its really funny!! ok bye love you matt and all my friends!! lov ya bye Current Mood: hyper Current Music: almost,bowling for soup (Comment on this) Wednesday, March 30th, 2005 4:08 pm i had fun today!! omg sooo much fun today, i had 7th and 8th period off, cuz the freshman had peer leadership and i spent the whole time wit kathleen part wit thomas...anyway nothing really that important happened today but it was just fun well bye everyone!! Current Mood: kinda hyper (Comment on this) Thursday, March 10th, 2005 9:05 pm Life with the perfect boyfriend!! wow, me and matthew are like perfect for eachother, i love u sooo much, were really close, we tell eachother everything, anyway, ill write more later lov ya sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo o much!! (Comment on this) Monday, January 3rd, 2005 12:25 am NEW YEARS EVE!! OMG, NEW YEARS was awsome jared was sopposed to come over but he ditched us so we went to mike's house and i met mike, diana, and veronica...there all cool...anyway, we talked a lil outside of diana's house then me, matthew, mike, and diana went back to mike's house to watch the ball come down but veronica couldnt come cuz her parents were being all mean about it... so the 4 of us went and after it dropped me and matt got just a bit make out crazy and did some shit to try and help diana get in the mood to do stuff wit mike, but they ended up going outside to smoke but mike said it kinda worked anyway, we mixed some bacardi(how ever u spell it) razz wit sierra mist and it was sooo good, got a lil tipsy, made out wit matthew alot, did shit, and went home to mom who has no clue that i drank like two small cups of that stuff but hey im fine and i didnt get drunk so she didnt notice...anyway im gonna go ill try to write everyday!! i love you matthew!! bye everyone (Comment on this) Tuesday, December 21st, 2004 10:06 pm omg, im soooo sad right now i cant believe that me and matt could possibly break up i mean he told me that some of his friends keep telling him to dump me and i really do love him and ive been very emotional lately so its really hard to deal wit the fact that i might lose this guy that i really deeply truely love i mean it really sucks...i cant believe that some of his friends would say that about me and him when the ones that said it never even met me and they dont even know me...thats really messed up...i hate this well ttyl bye everyone!! i love you matthew!! Current Mood: kinda sad (Comment on this) Sunday, December 19th, 2004 2:03 pm omg last night was soooo much fun wit matthew, we just watched movies, and ate pizza and hung out in eachothers arms it was so much fun!! My parents came 10 minutes early to pick me up and i was sooooo mad cuz i wasnt read to leave and i didnt have anything ready to leave and my stuff was all over his house!! i mean it was just too rushed to leave and my mom was mad at me for taking too long and i was like thats stupid, but if u know my mom then you know the rest of the car ride home!! anyway, matt got me this travel Jewelry box thing which is perfect for going away or if your going to a party cuz i can fit makeup in it too!! anyway, i miss emily and kathleen i mean i know its different since kathleen didnt move across the country but still i havent hung out wit kathleen in a while like outside of school so i miss spending time wit her too!! Emily's got to move back over here and im not even kidding like she has too!! lolz...im sooo hyper today im like dancin everywhere i go in my house i danced to the front door like 20 minutes ago...well ima go now and ill write more later or sometime!! love you sooo much matt!! love ya kathleen and emily!! (my 2 bestest friends in the whole world) bye babes Current Mood:  blah | | Monday, October 3rd, 2005 | | 6:56 am |
HOMECOMING AGAIN
OMG so HOMECOMING was soOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOoOo much fun this weekend im tired and I donno wat really to say it was so0o0o0o much fun seeing mark getting in trouble and then we ditched him which was fun too...we went down to town and hung out at Griffen’s house shes a freshman yea don’t ask im tired and I donno wat I was doing there but shes cool and shes been nice to me so I don’t care for right now...Its 8:00 in the morning and im at school and I don’t wanna be here its crazy but I don’t wanna be home either cuz that would just be so0o0o0o much worst...i dont really know wats going on with zack well actually i do its just well were basically together but not official til griffen is officially going out with that guy cuz we both dont want her mad at us...and i donno wat else to say so ima go sleepy now and someone better wake me up to go to class cuz ima forget...bye xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Current Mood:  and Happy | | Saturday, October 1st, 2005 | | 6:24 pm |
HOMECOMING
hey everybody omg homecoming last night was so0o0o0o0o0o much fun with just everybody....anyway...ttyl bye everyone Current Mood: happy | | Friday, September 16th, 2005 | | 10:24 pm |
JuNiOr YeAr RuLeS!!
yo wats good amigos im tired right now and swimming season is going awesome so far omg i love it so0o0o much..."~*~ I Just Hope You Dont Break My Heart As Fast AS You Healed It ~*~" this quote about is about me and matt of course if u know me then you get this quote in an instant...here's some more...lol...Me? I'm scared of everything. I'm scared of what I saw, what I did, and Most of all I'm scared of walking out of this room tonight and never feeling about anyone ever agian the way I feel when I'm with you...well g2g talk to people about important stuff bye everyone xoxoxoxo bye Current Mood: calm | | Sunday, April 3rd, 2005 | | 4:39 pm |
THE WHOLE DAY!!
today has been such a crazy day im soooo tired and i just wanna fall asleep...i watched the movie TAXI im waiting for my dad to get home so i can watch ladder 49 wit him,(alicia im finally gonna watch ur favorite movie)(lol) anyway, matthew is working on his euro project together...mattie has a friend over his house...christine is having too much fun thinking about her BIRTHDAY, which was yesterday!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!! lov ya...Lauchlan i donno she just signed off before and everyone else is just around someplace lol...im really bored...wow i need to study for global but i really dont feel like it...its kinda really boring shit...i got Teen People magazine the other day and on the cover was Jesse Mccartney and guess wat they asked him "Have you ever had a thing for older woman, like you Summerland character Bradin does for Erika?" Jesse replies saying, "I've never dated someone younger than I am. My older-woman crush is Maria Cross (Bree on Deperate Housewives). And on of the biggest loves of my life is Summerland's Lori Loughlin. She's the most beautiful woman ever. When i used to watch Full House, I wanted Uncle Jesse's hair and his girlfriend. He was the man!"...so christine how come your little lover boy jesse is lying in a magazine that he knew everybody would read about going out wit you, is it because maybe he never really dated you and you made the whole thing up...cuz i still dont believe it i mean really you dont have a pic of him and you together not even one i mean really and you cant give us (me and lauchlan) his phone number that is if u really have it and dont say you lost it cuz even if u did it still should be in ur memory cuz u would have memorized it if you too were really dating!! anyway, i g2g get out of this house and have some fun like friday night wit lauchlan,christine, and my baby matthew!! ok i love u matthew!! bye Current Mood:  & hyper | | 2:07 pm |
Everything thats happened lately!!
omg last night was soooo much fun wit matthew, we just watched movies, and ate pizza and hung out in eachothers arms it was so much fun!! My parents came 10 minutes early to pick me up and i was sooooo mad cuz i wasnt read to leave and i didnt have anything ready to leave and my stuff was all over his house!! i mean it was just too rushed to leave and my mom was mad at me for taking too long and i was like thats stupid, but if u know my mom then you know the rest of the car ride home!! anyway, matt got me this travel Jewelry box thing which is perfect for going away or if your going to a party cuz i can fit makeup in it too!! anyway, i miss emily and kathleen i mean i know its different since kathleen didnt move across the country but still i havent hung out wit kathleen in a while like outside of school so i miss spending time wit her too!! Emily's got to move back over here and im not even kidding like she has too!! lolz...im sooo hyper today im like dancin everywhere i go in my house i danced to the front door like 20 minutes ago...well ima go now and ill write more later or sometime!! love you sooo much matt!! love ya kathleen and emily!! (my 2 bestest friends in the whole world) bye babes OMG, NEW YEARS was awsome jared was sopposed to come over but he ditched us so we went to mike's house and i met mike, diana, and veronica...there all cool...anyway, we talked a lil outside of diana's house then me, matthew, mike, and diana went back to mike's house to watch the ball come down but veronica couldnt come cuz her parents were being all mean about it... so the 4 of us went and after it dropped me and matt got just a bit make out crazy and did some shit to try and help diana get in the mood to do stuff wit mike, but they ended up going outside to smoke but mike said it kinda worked anyway, we mixed some bacardi(how ever u spell it) razz wit sierra mist and it was sooo good, got a lil tipsy, made out wit matthew alot, did shit, and went home to mom who has no clue that i drank like two small cups of that stuff but hey im fine and i didnt get drunk so she didnt notice...anyway im gonna go ill try to write everyday!! i love you matthew!! bye everyone wow, me and matthew are like perfect for eachother, i love u sooo much, were really close, we tell eachother everything, anyway, ill write more later lov ya soooooooo much!! omg i brought matthew wit me and he met Lauchlan...christine...mark... heather and some other people, omg Mr. Resendez and Mr. V OMG WOW THEY WERE SOOO FUNNY!! The whole night was hilarous and i loved every minite of the awards it was sooo funny everything was hilarous...anyway, well tonight im grounded and kinda really bored, matt is at a family bat mitzvah, but anyway, i g2g im gonna go watch the movie TAXI its really funny!! ok bye love you matt and all my friends!! lov ya bye OMG PEOPLE AT MY SCHOOL THAT ARE FRIENDS WIT THOMAS ARE GETTING THERE ASSES KICKED WATCH YOUR BACK BITHCES!! MY BABY GOT HIS FRIEND MIKE TO HELP HIM KICK THOMAS'S ASS(HE BETTER BE WATCHIN HIS BACK CUZ IVE BEEN TALKING TO PEOPLE AND APPARENTLY NO ONE HAS THOMAS'S BACK)(AWWW TOO BAD HES A F*CKING DUMB ASS ANYWAY) I LOVE U MATTHEW!! BYE BABY Current Mood: hyperCurrent Music: Daddy Yankee, Gasolina | | Tuesday, December 7th, 2004 | | 11:07 pm |
Today!!
First of all whoever left me that comment betta kiss there ass good bye cuz its about to get kicked when i find out who you are, you have no business telling me that no one reads my journal no fuckin asked you to read it you chose too so dont give me that bull shit that no one reads it cuz you dont even know anything about me then wat i have typed in my journal!! Now, for people who actually matter, omg today was sooooooooooooooo boring like today in school lasted forever!! i thought i was going to die cuz i was soooooo bored...so i cant believe i had to wait until 9:50 for matt to call me tonight i was soooooooo bored all day...i have a feeling that me and matt are going to last for a really long time like maybe marriage sorta thing and i know im a teenager and maybe thats just a bit over exagerating but i can just feel it when i talk to him and when im around him everything in the world is perfect and i know me and matt are definitly meant for eachother!! i love you matt!! good night!! Current Mood: hyper | | Saturday, December 4th, 2004 | | 11:48 pm |
Teddy Bear
this entry is going to be all about my teddy bear(Matt), we spent the whole day together today it was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun omg i cant believe we spent the whole day together it feels like soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much shorter!! i cant believe it but i did go to the mall wit matt to get alicia's b-day present and the movie a walk to remember finally i bought it, yess i know its a chick flick but hey its a great meaningful movie and i had to finally get it!!!! anyway i love you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooo much matt and i hope u believe me now!! anyway i g2g spend some time wit my family i havent been wit them all day!! good night matt love you always!! Current Mood:  loved |
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